Fragments and Unity: longing

Mysterious Star
Warwick Allen
Saturday, 12 December 1998

Upon the starts I gaze
Into the heavens I stare
I find some comfort there
Though star seem so far away

I've been here for sometime
Staring, watching, waiting
Praying, always hoping
A bright star might be mine

Past me, sometimes, a star will fly
A beautiful, radiant shooting star
Travelling by me not so far
For my heart to singe as it passes by

I see a new star now coming towards me
From the others, somehow different
More intensely radiant
With a light greater than its own, for all to see

With that light, I'm quite familiar
That holy, pure light
Potent enough to pierce the darkest night
My heart this light does lure

Never before has a star of this nature
Glowing with holy radiance
Shinning with natural brilliance
Never before has one come so near

Will this star come close enough for harm
Burn my soul and then depart
Fly harmlessly into the distance, or crash into my heart
Or float like a butterfly into my arms

Where Shall I Go from Here?
Warwick Allen
Wednesday, 25 March 1998

As a planet circles its sun
To you my heart seems eternally bound
Through an irregular ellipse I run
Drifting nearer and farther, around and around
But always ending up where I began

If only I could get enough speed
To break free of the pull
The relentless attraction, the incessant need
To escape this agonising orbit, this endless cycle
I would finally be freed

As it is, I can discern
The light and warmth you radiate
To come closer, I desperately yearn
But I know what would be my fate
The light would vanish, but the heat would burn

Oh, where shall I go from here
This place where wisdom and emotions clash so violently?
All I ask of you, all I dare
Is that you'll forgive my weakness graciously
And you won't take from me any of that I hold so dear